BOOSTER : Teardrops

When we say teardops, first thing in mind will be that particular person is sad, in misery

But

Have you guys ever think that maybe she or he is crying because they're happy or because they feel better ?

Teardrops are always related to sadness, but how many people see tears as something good ? Something that we should feel blessed of ?

I am the very few people who actually feel bless every single time i cry. Doesn't matter if I still haven't solve the problems after I cry. Here's the thing about tears, Once you feel bad, sad, miserable you cry. But once you stop, you feel better. You feel like you have the strength again. Have you guys heard this

"Cry, let it go. Don't hold it inside you. Let it out "

Is that proven ? The answer is yes. 

let me ask you one question here.. If you feel like you're falling apart and you have no one to turn too. You feel like the world just crush on you and you have no one to tell to, What will you do ? 

And when you feel like you're breaking apart, and you tell yourself 

" NO ! Im not going to cry. Im strong and I will face this. "

How many times can you repeat that without you feeling the heartache ? How many times can you say this without trying to hold a single drop of tears ? 

Eventually you'll cry. You will cry your heart out, especially when you're alone. 

After you cry ? Does you feel more alive, even if you can't take a single breath, I can assure you, you can feel the weights on your shoulder are taken off, you feel lighter and you feel like there's light and energy that can guide you to live again. To be stronger than before. To be more motivated than before. 

Don't view something just the way it is. Try to view it the other way round and you'll see the other side of that something. Even if its a bad thing in millions people opinion, even if its breaking you apart, see the good side of that something. Eventually you'll find it. 

Life is a cycle, one day you're on top and the next day you're at the bottom, One day you're smiling, the next day you're crying. You can't be happy all the time or else you won't know how to do live when you're down. And you can't be sad all the time because you might not know how to feel happy anymore. You might not know what happiness anymore. 

Lisa Viour

Lots Of Love 

27th September 2013 

HEART : How are you today is how you was before

I can't describe what I feel right now. My best friend is slowly drifting apart from me. I won't get a best friend like her. I promise. The fact that i'm in a relationship really affect the people around me. I wish I can turn time.

If i knew this will happen, I'll think about my decision a trillion time. But i believe i wont change my decision.

I really don't know if its me, but as far as im concern, Ive tried my best to satisfy everybody. Ive tried to divide my time equally and its really hard.

Im the one who end up alone, without my bestfriend. I admit i don't show people my feelings. I admit I always run and separate myself from others. But its not because I'm scared. I don't need people sympathy. I learn to deal with my own problems. And thats me, i grew up learning how to be responsible for what i do and deal with my problems alone.

This feel so dejavu. Its like back to highschool. I had enough in highschool already. And i still remember how painful it was in highschool and how glad i am when i finish my highschool earlier than my batch. 

The mask i put on myself is going to tear apart really soon. I put on a smile all the time and it wear me out. Im not  pretending, but i don't know how to feel. I cant feel..

Yes I've become emotionless. I wonder how i can hold myself in front of people and how i break down so bad when I'm  alone.  

Maybe thats how i grew up. I learn to handle things alone because I've been all alone for all this while.  

                                                 Lisa Viour

Written with .......

Lots Of Love

Self Esteem Boost Part 2 : The Magic of Passion

" Practice makes perfect "

I have heard this quotes a lot. But does this true ? Does that work on everybody ? Do you do that because you have to do that or because you want to ? If you want to, what make you want to do it ?

" I've done my best but i guess it just not worth it "

I remember saying this all the time everytime i didn't reach my mom's expectation. But is that true that i've done enough ?

I used to cry because i thought i can't do it anymore. I went back and cried to mama, 

"Mama, I can't do this, everyone else is so much better than me. I can't even doodles. "

My mom she didn't say anything, she just hugged me. I was giving up. For me, i've used up all my energy for this thing. I wanted to stop. Stop from all this pain. Then I realized something, Someone who quit is worst than a murderer. Once I quit, I forgot all the thing that make me choose it from the start. I will disappoint everyone who cheer me when me when I first start my class. I used to be so jealous to see my cousins who learn by books. 

Then I started to work harder than before, My human figure used to so terrible. Simply say I can only draw basic shapes like triangles and squares. Until I day, I realized some changes in me. Im starting to draw faces. Real faces. 

Mama told me last time that I can't draw human. And I told her, "Yes, I can' draw faces. "

Thinking back, i do design because I'm passionate about it. I've always know that I can't draw. Even from high school. I may not know how to draw, but passion drive to the correct path, passion drive me learn how to draw. And passion also drive me to become a designer. 

" Well, this sucks ! "

I said it all the time when Im under pressure, but do I really mean ? Yes hell I do. But does that make me want to quit ? Last time, yes. Now, you throw me a whole junks of random work, I'll figure it out. I won't give up on this. 

" When you're good at it, you'll love it ! "

Isn't that true ? Think about it :) We didn't like to do something because we didn't know how to do it. when you're in this situation. You're the one and the only one who can decide. Either you choose to learn, or you choose to abandoned it and go on with the only thing you know how to do. If you choose to abandon it, have you push yourself to the limits ? If you choose to learn, don't you learn something new, something outside of your comfort zone ? Sometimes, all we need is just a little push. 

" The most painful thing is learning "

Thats the learning process. It will be the most painful experience things you'll ever experience and every single time you learn, every single time also you will hurt. But don't you think its worth it ? The only different is every learning process is the duration of the pain. But all of the learning experience have 1 thing in common. 

" They all have the same ending if you manage you pull it off. "

Lisa Viour 

Lots of Love 

5th September 2013

Self Esteem Boost Part 1

Overthinking is like floating balloons. Sometimes, the string is tie to the ground sometimes it just float around. 

Sometimes I think while i'm still tied to reality. I know how to connect what im thinking with reality and think rationally. But sometimes I just think and think and think and end up hurting myself. Not physically but emotionally, mentally. Yes, i believe non solid things do hurt human. Its the same concept when i believe in every teary eyes, there will be a smile await. So why hurt ourselves ? Is it because its fun ? Is it for our satisfaction ? Or is it because we are just bored ? 

I keep this in mind.. always , 

And trust me it works everytime. 

Last but not least, whenever you feel down.. Just cry, because cry will always make you feel better afterwards. Afterall, you're still the one who make the call. 

" POSITIVE ENERGY ATTRACT POSITIVE EMOTION. "

I know not everybody like to cry but think again

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*grind*

Lisa Viour

Lots Of Love 

3 September 2013