HEART : Expression

The loneliest person are the kindest,

The saddest people have the brightest smile,

The most damaged people are the wisest,

And they said its all because they do not wish to see anyone else suffer the way they do.

so which one am I ?

I wonder.

I also wonder why am I still blogging even though I know very little people read my blog,

I found my answer and I couldn't be happier.

I know for a fact I'm not good at a lot of things. One things I'm not good at is expressing myself verbally which can be pain in the ass. The feeling when you want to say something so badly but you can't simply because you're scared is just awful.



I can't keep it to myself forever. There's a limit to everything. Even the deepest hole have a base. We are human. We have the needs to express our feelings. We have the needs to express our thoughts. But when I can't express it verbally, I just have to find other way to do so. Some people express themselves through art, songs, lyrics, melody, dancing but for me I prefer writing,

I may sounds like I'm the most depress person in the world trust me I'm not. I try to be the happiest person to the people around me. So hopefully they don't need to go through what I went through. At least not with me. Someday, somewhere, someone might have a different view of life after he/she accidentally found my blog. Someday, maybe I help someone through this blog without even me realizing it.

I may not get back what I give but I'm happy to know I've done my all on the least things I could do for the people around me.

I'm not an angel nor god, I'm just a normal human being. I can't grant people their wishes. I can't give whatever they want. I can't. Again, I'm just a normal human being. But being able to put a smile on someone's face will make me have a smile on mine. I'm telling you it feel great.

There's time when I'm sad, there's time when I'm depress and there's time when I'm hurt.

But I don't want to hide behind my sadness or depression. It's just another part of the story in my life stories. In YOUR life stories. Let it out. Somehow, someway, you will find your courage to do so. There's always a way for you to do so. The most important thing is what ever you do, make sure it makes you happy. Make sure it will makes you a better person.



"Don't mask your pain and tears with laughter. cry now so you can have a much more enjoyable, honest and healthier laugh later."


Lots of Love
Lisa Viour

HEART : Trust, Believe and Stories

Well tbh I don't really know what to write now. Kinda go along with heart I guess. That's how I usually write. But I can promise you one thing, when I write my thought, It will keep pounding in my head until I finish it. Honestly, based on my opinion anything comes from heart have meaningful meaning to it. There's always stories behind it. Like a story in a story, decoding another story by going deeper into a story. Not just the base story. Okay, too much stories there. As for me, when I'm writing I'll try to be 100% honest.

I mean I can't be 100% honest. Even the most honest person on earth have secrets. Everybody have secrets you all. That's human nature.

I wonder, can one person fulfill every promises they made without once they didn't fulfill the promises.People said,

"Promises are meant to be broken"





If so, why they make promises at the first place. Wouldn't it be hurtful to the person who they made promises when they didn't fulfill it.

Trust is the key to promises. Because promises only happen when one believe and hold to the words. For someone to do that, one need to trust the person who make the promises.

"Trust is like broken glass, once it gets broken you can try your best to glue it back together but no matter you do, it will never be the same again."

If trust is so fragile, why does one give their trust away so easily?

And I will never know how far can a person go to break a person. Didn't they realize how much damage can they do to the poor soul who trust them.

One said,

Promises are dreams and dreams become memories.

It is true.

But

It can either be a good ending or a bad ending.

I can assure you one things, they all start from promises.

If the promises are fulfill, dreams comes true and sweet memories is definitely the memories you don't want to forget.

Vice Versa





What happen to the promises after it was broken? What happen to the person who make the promises? Lastly,  what happen to the person who is holding to it?





Everyone have stories behind it, and one will always have a never ending stories behind who they really are.

That's just how human works. That's just how we work




Lots of Love
Lisa Viour

HEART : Regrets

I live with too many regrets,

Regret going to Taylor's

Regret that I stopped golf last year

Regret that I didn't do research on about going to USA earlier.

and hell lots of things.

But,

Ive read an articles and I definitely do not want any regret anymore.

top 5 regrets people make on their deathbed

This article presents a series of regrets that many people experience of their deathbed. It’s an interesting source of perspective for many of us who are moving into new phases of our adult lives.



Ware writes of the phenomenal clarity of vision that people gain at the end of their lives, and how we might learn from their wisdom. “When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently,” she says, “common themes surfaced again and again.”

Here are the top five regrets of the dying, as witnessed by Ware:

For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. Some incredibly special times were shared. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.

People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality. I learnt never to underestimate someone’s capacity for growth. Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventually acceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.

When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:

1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.

It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it.

2. I wish I didn’t work so hard.

This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children’s youth and their partner’s companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.

By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.

Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.

We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.

It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip. But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end. That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called ‘comfort’ of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.

When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind. How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying.

Life is a choice. It is YOUR life. Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness.

Credits : http://www.seenox.com/2014/02/14/nurse-reveals-top-5-regrets-people-make-deathbed/

Lots of Love 
Lisa Viour

HEART : Competition

I look around, 

and I look at the people around me. 

I wonder what is in their mind, 

How can they be so good ?

How much pain have they been through ?

And did I suffer enough to be at their level. 

But then I realized something what people always miss, 

Everyone is struggling, 

As I'm struggling to be fight the people who are better than me, 

They are fighting to be a better person than who they are now. 

Better then their competitors, 

As for whoever on the top, 

They are not as safe as they thought, 

There will always someone chasing them from behind, 

But most importantly, 

They can never stop competing with themselves, 

Competing to stay on top. 

Competing to be the best. 

Or someone might cut them off. 

And too bad, I'm gonna be the one cutting you off. 

Lots Of Love

Lisa Viour

HEART : Never Enough

When I work,

And work,

But I failed,

I tell yourself, "Its okay, practice harder, work harder than before"

So I try harder,

Spent so much time and effort into it,

But it still seems like its not enough.

Helpless but still go on,

For the people around me,

And most importantly to myself,

The people around me is what keep me going,

The people around me is what keep me working,

They are my spirit, my cheers, my support and my strength.

But one day,

They leave,

They give up,

They let me go alone.

And I'm confuse but not yet give up.

But it seems like I'm never good enough for them,

No matter how hard I try.

And I start questioning myself,

"Should I continue ?"

Lots Of Love

Lisa Viour