I found the phone
I must’ve missed your message
You got it wrong, It wasn’t what your friend said.
I can tell by your tone, I’ve taken it too far again.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.
Your friends are telling you, You gotta move on.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don’t know why i ever waited to say.
'cause I’m just dying just to see you again .
Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should’ve let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give ,I was the first to ask.
Now I’m in second place, to get a second chance.
I should've known, took you and I for granted
Gotta let you know, I was never underhanded.
Tell by your tone, I’ve taken it too far again.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.
My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don’t know why i ever waited to say.
'cause I’m just dying just to see you again .
Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should’ve let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I’m in second place, to get a second chance.
My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I’m in second place, to get a second chance.
What you give is always what you get.
There's so much I haven't given yet.
If you could give another second chance.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.
My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don’t know why I ever waited to say.
'cause I’m just dying just to see you again .
Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should’ve let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I’m in second place, to get a second chance.
My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give I was the first to ask.
Now I’m in second place to get a second chance.
Instead of holding you, I was holding out?
I should’ve let you in, but I let you down
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask?
Now I’m in second place, to get a second chance.
I used to say tears is a sign of happiness. But I never thought tears could live up the feelings that already died. I never thought tears can be either a shield or a weapon. I've tried my very best to pull myself away from you. But the more I tried, the stronger our memories stay in my mind. I'm losing my mind, I'm losing. To you. I've tried every possible ways for me to just get you off my mind, instead my feeling for you get stronger each day.
I'm LOST.
In my journey of recovering from you.
I'm LOST.
In my emotions of me and you.
I'm LOST
In my thought we used to shared.
I'm LOST.
In my world where you used to be in.
I'm LOST.
In my dreams where your face smiling used to be in it every night.
Ive done too many mistakes in my life and I cant seem to break the chain reaction. I do not wish to correct my mistakes. All I want is for me to start making the right decisions and I cant make my one and only decisions I wish I made from the start because im not ready. The things that have been holding me back have took it tolls on me for too long and I do not wish to go on like this. All I want to do is set my life in a right path again and I cant seem to start doing so. I dont know if I wait for a longer time, will I be able to let go and move on at all. I wish I didn't know you. I wish I didn't start replying you and I wish I didnt make all the stupid mistakes I've made with you because I wont be facing what I'm facing now if it wasn't because of our breakup. My life turns upside down and I cant seem to put it back on track. I cant understand how and why we broke up on the first place. I dont understand why and how you can moved on so fast and im still stuck in my own emotions and thought. In my own bubble fills with our sweet bitter memories. All I want is for me to go back to the place I love the most but with you being there, with our memories being there, I cant. I tried my best to start anew and just forget all the things we've been through but I didnt seem to work. Ive thought of getting back together with you a million times. Never a day of life went through without the thought of us getting back together not in my mind. But the question is, would you want to get back together with me. You wouldnt understand how hard my life have been since the day we broke up. You wouldnt understand how badly I want to run away from here and leave all the thoughts behind and start anew in a foreign city, people and just start anew as us NEVER happen. But every plans ive made never workout instead without my will I keep on going back to the point I started. No matter how hard I tried, it never workout. Why does it have to be so hard on me and so easy for you. This is not fair at all. I gave my all and I got a very shitty chain to the things ive done previously and I cant seem to break the chain at all. Am I the only one who feel this or youre feeling the same way as I do? I doubt you feel the same way as I do. I doubt you have the same thought as I do. Because from the start, im the only one who always wish you to be mine again.
Flashes of thousands memories float through my mind. If I could rewind the moments, I wouldn't change anything about you. But, I have thousands and thousands of things that I want to change about me. We are both humans and both of us are not perfect. But you are so much better than me, thought me something I wish I can do since as long as I can remember. Encourage and support me to pursue what I want to be. Always there around me to catch me if I slip, to lend me your shoulder to rest on, to wipe my tears wish your warm palms, to always remind me how much you love me by leaving love notes in my phone.
We're ladies always so blind to see what's infront of us and chase something we can never put our hands on. We ladies always judge a person on the outlook instead of what's inside and we ladies always compare ourselves and what we have to the person we didn't even know. Because we rush into things, always listen to what others says and always think that you know everything but you certainly not.
You once said to me
"Im gonna love you till my last breath"
you once said,
"Im gonna marry you someday"
You once said,
"If you cut open my heart, It will spell out nuralissa"
MEMORIES take one seconds to remember and a life time to forget. There's joy in tears and there's love in pain. Makes memories memorable even if its not and it will be a memorable one. Everything happen for a reason and so does the memories.
