Its funny how when I was a a teenager I always wish I'll wake up with amnesia so that I wouldn't feel all the pain and the heartache I felt growing up. Not that Im saying Im not a teenager now. But I genuinely feel like an adult eventhough I still am a teenager. The way I think, the feelings I feel, the way I talks and even the way I act. I've grown up so much since the last time I remember myself.
It's true than, experiences is the best teacher you will ever have in your whole life.
Yea, I still have the same wish sometimes when the pain I feel are unbearable.
Too much that I thought of taking anti-depressant pills,
too much that I just break down alone under the blanket,
too much that I won't eat for couple days.
I still couldn't believe how 5SOS can portray my thought so perfectly that I couldn't help but to listen to it all day and night. It's so perfect that I feel like myself again.
The me that build walls around my heart.
The me that pour all my thought into this deary blog,
The me that don't smile as much.
and
The me that love to be by myself in a quite night and just think.
Just think no matter what is it, just think and write.
Just because thinking and writing make me calm.
Calm as the drizzling rain.
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Lots of Love
LIsa Viour
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