HEART : Dying inside

I never wish for me to fall for you, but as each day passes by I do realize my feelings do grow for you but the question is how deep is it?

I've become very sensitive to your words. The way you talk to me never offended me before but I do get offended now. I cry alone to my sleep when your words slice me like a sword without you knowing it. I try to express my feelings to you, i try to express how offended i felt but the words never come out of my mouth.

I bit my lip when i accidentally saw your text with your fiance. Look away when I saw you said you miss her when you never once say you miss me to me. I look away realizing i'm in no place to feel what i felt. But i try my very best to comfort you. Make you happy as hard as I could. Knowing you lied to me, hurt me. Yet I still go back to you.

I tried hanging out with our friends without you, but it never feel the same. With you, even no word come out of our mouth I still feel comfortable. I still feel happy.

I enjoy your company, I enjoy your comfort.

But as each day passes by, I do realize how distance you are from me. As my feelings grow for you, so does your distance with me. I no longer hear you call me love. You no longer protect me like you did last time.

I feel like the time is approaching. Maybe even faster than I expected. I want to confront you and ask. But I'm scared you will leave me on that exact moment.

I've opened up to you, and you makes me feel like I opened up to the wrong person.

Im so addicted to you, and I can't help it.

Lots of Love
Lisa Viour